I AM good enough.

Sometimes (ok, most of the time (ok, just about every single time)), I struggle when things aren't perfect. When the house is a wreck, when dinner doesn't turn out the way I want, when I make something and it just looks plain ugly, when I'm late, when my hair looks flat or too poofy, you get the picture. It's just lame, and it gets me down. I know it shouldn't and blah blah blah, but it does. But, deep down inside, I know it shouldn't really bother me. It IS NOT a reflection of me or who I am. Last night, my sweet husband and I were talking. I was only semi-involved in the conversation because of all the things swirling around in my head. He asked me what I was thinking about, and I said, "Stuff. Just lots of stuff." So, he asked, "What stuff?" I asked if he wanted the short list of categories or all the little sub-categories, too. Of course, he wanted to know it all. He's great like that. And at the end of my long list of silly things, he said to me, "You are good enough. You are good enough." I am so hard on myself, and I shouldn't be. I do my best, and it really is good enough. I can't be perfect all of the time, and it's okay.

So, today I launched myself into organizing and beautifying my surroundings. I started with organizing the cupboards in the guest bathroom. (It's the smallest space in the house.) I'm moving out from there. And, I'm feeling great. I also finally started writing in Marné's journal. Something I meant to start before she was born. Two years later, I finally sat down to write. I'd been frustrated that I had missed starting at the beginning, and couldn't bare the thought of starting part way through. Part way through is better than never starting at all!

I finally decided to get rid of the dead, DeaD, DEAD herbs on my window sill. They have been long gone since Christmas break. I think stuff like that can really wear on you without thinking about it. Who wants dead herbs on their window sill in their room? I had set out to have a lush herb garden picturing myself using the herbs in fantastic culinary creations. I used some a few times before they died, so, I'm finally ready for round two. (If anyone has some awesome tips on growing herbs, I'd surely appreciate them.)

Here's to re-organizing, re-vamping, re-growing, and finally starting ALL the things in our lives that tell us we are not good enough. We are good enough.